Im not old enough to know what true love really is. But i can’t help but wonder. However, at my age I guess the closest thing is when you meet someone and they are leaving but you arent about to let that get in the way of how you feel. and you can for sure know that that person is worth waiting for. That even when they are gone its okay because you have the hope of them coming back to keep you waiting and holding on. And to know that the only way you could let them go, is if they let go first. and to know that you like that person so much that no matter how long they are gone it wouldnt change how you feel bout them.
How do you explain something that cant be explained to a point that where that thing would be capable of being grasped? How do you explain something that if you tried to, it would just seem shallow because of how deep this thing is and there is no way to express it in a just way.
Well basically. I dont know
How do you break down a wall between you and God if you dont know what made that wall? No one wants a wall between them and God, yet, there is one there. Why? Perhaps its our pride or our selfishness or out in-ability to let go of the things this world has to “offer” that will just later burn and we are so used to being in that state of mind that we hardly notice.. until God starts stirring something in you and opens you eyes to that wall. You then realise this wall is keeping you from really experencing him and entering into his presence and you see that what God offers is eternal and you long for that, but to have it you must break through this wall you have somehow made. But how do you break down this wall?
Well. You cant. Not without God! You cant do anything in your own strength.
I dont know if that makes sense. I probably worded it wrong. But oh well…
We all have dreams. But yet, we dont go after them. Why? For some it is because they are just scared to or think it just wont work. Well you never know untill you try. And we are in the world full of opportunity so there really is nothing stopping you. You can go after what you want because anything is possible. So why dont you? Some people may say its not realistic. But why does everything have to be realistic?! Why cant you just go out and live a little and take a chance just cause you can? Well… you can! so do it!
well its been awhile since i have shared anything, deep or not. So its about time.
My eyes have been opened to how much better i could be doing. How pointlessly i feel i have been living my life right now. But its time for a change. I need to realize that this is serious.. God is real and he is here. I need to start living my life according to how much i love him! And I have the privileged to sacrifice everything to love and follow God. I hope that in time a burning fire will grow inside my heart for God and i will be so much more passionate for him. I have thousands of things running through my head right now!!! and i dont know how to say/express them all….its like i have 2 different sides of me fighting inside myself. one is a more worldly side and another a more Godly side. Its pretty much the biggest conscience in the world!! so yeah. but anyways. i dont know what to think about
When we die we either go to heaven or hell. and we spend eternity there. At youthgroup my eyes were opened that i have not been living my life for the eternity. I have been living the more luke-warm christian life i think. And when i get to heaven and people ask what it was like to receive Gods redeeming love, what am i going to tell them? I dont wanna tell them some lame story of “oh yeah i got saved but thats it” i want it to be epic! and full of Gods glory!!! When we lose sight of eternity we start to make bad and stupid decisions and these bad decisions affect our eternity with God. I dont want to miss out on what God has planned for my life. Because if i fulfill his plan, i will have an epic story to tell in heaven to glorify God. When i look back at my life, so far, i havent been living for much. I just go day by day with blaaah. But what i have forgotten is that there is so much more to live for! I have God to live for, to live to glorify his name!! however, for some reason, God just isnt real to me. I know he is there and everything. But lots of time i dont feel his presence and its like im talking to nothing. SO yeah.. thats what im thinking about. I dont know if i worded any of it right, but it makes sense to me.
Nothing compares to Gods love. There is nothing like it! So when you feel empty or like something is missing.. dont try and fill it with other relationships or get that love from someone els or fill it with things of this world. God is the only ting that can complete that void.
